Ok, I am not a blogger, and probably no one will read this anyway, so I am just going to type what comes into my head. It is 1:00 AM and I can't sleep. I have been sick for 3 days now, and I still am sick, and it is driving me nuts. I just keep seeming to get tested, and I really want to move forward in my life, just to get hit with roadblocks all the time.
It all started in December. I had been perfectly fine, been going to school, and doing well in school, making straight A's, hardly sick, and then all of a sudden, I started to get sick. I stayed sick for a long time. I had ear infections, bronchitis a few times, pneumonia, flu, tonsillitis, ummm, even a sinus infection. I had a sore throat every day from December until now. I had been going to the doctor's and ERs since December and finally I thought it had all stopped, and then I realized, I STILL had a sore throat. Everything else had gone away, except that, and a little tenderness on the outside of my throat and a little in my ear. I went back to the doctor and he said well, it is NOT a virus, and probably nothing you can get rid of with antibiotic, since i had had many antibiotics already and nothing had killed the sore throat. He asked if I smoked, and I had just recently quit, something I am not proud of, I had started smoking again when my life seemed to be falling apart last year, but that is another post or just nothing to talk about here. So, anyway, he asked me if I smoked and I had just quit and he asked me how long I had smoked and all total I had smoked for a very long time, not including the 14 months I had quit before last year. He told me that there is a possibility it could be cancer, and told me to see an ENT. So, there it was, i am 33 years old and have the best little 3 year old little boy in the whole universe and he told me I may have caused myself to get cancer. I cried, but then I prayed. I said, there is no way that is what it is and if it is, i will be okay, cuz it can be healed. I went on with my day and made my appointment with the ENT.
Then I graduated on Friday (5/16). Well, I went to graduation. I still have a few chapters I have to finish in a one class to actually get my diploma. So, I am all psyched about that, and go throughout my weekend, and my son wakes up on Monday morning with a FEVER. So, no school on Monday for me. Day one. Then on Tuesday, I do make it into school, I take a test for one class to finish and plan to take another the next day just to finish a class, and I am sitting in class and start to feel a little ill. I decide to go ahead and go home because I didn't have any work i could really do, since I had to wait until the instructor lectured the next day with the new class of Accounting 3 students and I needed that lecture because that was a chapter I needed to get my diploma.
Well, I go home, and before i can make it home, I have some tummy problems. Well, I won't go into detail, but I have been sick in different ways for the last three days, going on four. I still can't eat without it leaving my body too quickly in a very disgusting way.
I went to see the ENT yesterday and they performed a scope procedure that looked into my throat and he decided my tonsils have to come out because one was EXTREMELY enlarged, causing all the problems, and he wants to test it once it is out. So, I have not been to school this week, so I have not done more school work, and I have to have surgery.
These are my tests. I am just going to continue on plugging away, trying to finish my assignments before June 20th, which is my surgery date. And after my surgery, I will recover as fast as i can (and it will not test as cancer), and i will get a job to support me and my son. I will write in another blog another day about where i live and my situation. I know my situation, and like i said, i am sure no one else will be reading this blog, so i am cool.
Okay, this was really really long.
Good night!
