Well, I did it.
I finally did it.
I still can't believe I actually did it.
I finished school yesterday.
This is the first time in my whole life that I have completed ANYTHING, with the exception of high school, and I finished that late as well.
If you read my last post, you know that I had been given some extra time to complete my courses at school. I was given four extra weeks to complete four chapters, and to complete four tests. I missed the first week, due to MORE illness, and then finished two weeks and two days later, one week early. My Grade Point Average is about a 3.7, and I really don't know how that happened. Out of all the classes I took, I only had two grades below an A, and they were two C's. I am not sure how much of the program I actually remember though, and I hope and pray (key word) that I am able to find a job in the field and remember what I learned when I begin the job.
God has not brought me this far to drop me, so I am sure I will be okay.
Ya see, I have been tested much the last two years, and God has carried me through many things. I was asked to leave my parents home with a two year old on Christmas Day, 2006. I was working for a family babysitting full-time, and they let me move in with them temporarily. They realized they couldn't help me anymore because they could not afford to pay me enough to move out and they really needed their space back. So, I went to work for another family, who told me after a week that it would not work out. I was now jobless, homeless and penniless. With a two year old. I did not know where I was going to turn, and didn't feel I could call anyone from my church family or any of my friends because everyone had been so proud of me and the fact that I had found something fantastic with the family I had moved in with. I remember sitting in my car the night after I was told I had two weeks to find somewhere to go, and I prayed and prayed, and was sure an answer would not come.
I had told one friend what had happened, only because she and her family were friends with the family that had told me to leave, and she directed me to this place that had a program for self-sufficiency for families that were homeless or at-risk of being homeless, so I went there. Anyway, it is a long story after this, but after lots of God intervention and some time, I was accepted into this program. I have been here since March 20, 2007. I have spent two Easters, a Thanksgiving, and a Christmas in this place. They had daycare scholarships with an on-site daycare so that I could go to school. They have been very understanding with my health issues that I have been going through lately and are being very supportive of the surgery I am having next week. God sent me to this place. I am sure of it. I only have a few months left here, and I am grateful for the time I have been able to stay here. It is a hard place to live in, due to all of the different personalities here, but I have still stayed and not been asked to leave. My son has thrived in their daycare and with all the children in the program, and I am very grateful.
This blog started out as one thing, and turned into something completely different, but I am not a real blogger. I am just beginning my journey in this life, so I can be forgiven minor things like a subject change in the middle of a post, right?
Thank you God for everything you have given me, the big things, and the small things. I am truly grateful.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
Random Thoughts
Ok, I am not a blogger, and probably no one will read this anyway, so I am just going to type what comes into my head. It is 1:00 AM and I can't sleep. I have been sick for 3 days now, and I still am sick, and it is driving me nuts. I just keep seeming to get tested, and I really want to move forward in my life, just to get hit with roadblocks all the time.
It all started in December. I had been perfectly fine, been going to school, and doing well in school, making straight A's, hardly sick, and then all of a sudden, I started to get sick. I stayed sick for a long time. I had ear infections, bronchitis a few times, pneumonia, flu, tonsillitis, ummm, even a sinus infection. I had a sore throat every day from December until now. I had been going to the doctor's and ERs since December and finally I thought it had all stopped, and then I realized, I STILL had a sore throat. Everything else had gone away, except that, and a little tenderness on the outside of my throat and a little in my ear. I went back to the doctor and he said well, it is NOT a virus, and probably nothing you can get rid of with antibiotic, since i had had many antibiotics already and nothing had killed the sore throat. He asked if I smoked, and I had just recently quit, something I am not proud of, I had started smoking again when my life seemed to be falling apart last year, but that is another post or just nothing to talk about here. So, anyway, he asked me if I smoked and I had just quit and he asked me how long I had smoked and all total I had smoked for a very long time, not including the 14 months I had quit before last year. He told me that there is a possibility it could be cancer, and told me to see an ENT. So, there it was, i am 33 years old and have the best little 3 year old little boy in the whole universe and he told me I may have caused myself to get cancer. I cried, but then I prayed. I said, there is no way that is what it is and if it is, i will be okay, cuz it can be healed. I went on with my day and made my appointment with the ENT.
Then I graduated on Friday (5/16). Well, I went to graduation. I still have a few chapters I have to finish in a one class to actually get my diploma. So, I am all psyched about that, and go throughout my weekend, and my son wakes up on Monday morning with a FEVER. So, no school on Monday for me. Day one. Then on Tuesday, I do make it into school, I take a test for one class to finish and plan to take another the next day just to finish a class, and I am sitting in class and start to feel a little ill. I decide to go ahead and go home because I didn't have any work i could really do, since I had to wait until the instructor lectured the next day with the new class of Accounting 3 students and I needed that lecture because that was a chapter I needed to get my diploma.
Well, I go home, and before i can make it home, I have some tummy problems. Well, I won't go into detail, but I have been sick in different ways for the last three days, going on four. I still can't eat without it leaving my body too quickly in a very disgusting way.
I went to see the ENT yesterday and they performed a scope procedure that looked into my throat and he decided my tonsils have to come out because one was EXTREMELY enlarged, causing all the problems, and he wants to test it once it is out. So, I have not been to school this week, so I have not done more school work, and I have to have surgery.
These are my tests. I am just going to continue on plugging away, trying to finish my assignments before June 20th, which is my surgery date. And after my surgery, I will recover as fast as i can (and it will not test as cancer), and i will get a job to support me and my son. I will write in another blog another day about where i live and my situation. I know my situation, and like i said, i am sure no one else will be reading this blog, so i am cool.
Okay, this was really really long.
Good night!
It all started in December. I had been perfectly fine, been going to school, and doing well in school, making straight A's, hardly sick, and then all of a sudden, I started to get sick. I stayed sick for a long time. I had ear infections, bronchitis a few times, pneumonia, flu, tonsillitis, ummm, even a sinus infection. I had a sore throat every day from December until now. I had been going to the doctor's and ERs since December and finally I thought it had all stopped, and then I realized, I STILL had a sore throat. Everything else had gone away, except that, and a little tenderness on the outside of my throat and a little in my ear. I went back to the doctor and he said well, it is NOT a virus, and probably nothing you can get rid of with antibiotic, since i had had many antibiotics already and nothing had killed the sore throat. He asked if I smoked, and I had just recently quit, something I am not proud of, I had started smoking again when my life seemed to be falling apart last year, but that is another post or just nothing to talk about here. So, anyway, he asked me if I smoked and I had just quit and he asked me how long I had smoked and all total I had smoked for a very long time, not including the 14 months I had quit before last year. He told me that there is a possibility it could be cancer, and told me to see an ENT. So, there it was, i am 33 years old and have the best little 3 year old little boy in the whole universe and he told me I may have caused myself to get cancer. I cried, but then I prayed. I said, there is no way that is what it is and if it is, i will be okay, cuz it can be healed. I went on with my day and made my appointment with the ENT.
Then I graduated on Friday (5/16). Well, I went to graduation. I still have a few chapters I have to finish in a one class to actually get my diploma. So, I am all psyched about that, and go throughout my weekend, and my son wakes up on Monday morning with a FEVER. So, no school on Monday for me. Day one. Then on Tuesday, I do make it into school, I take a test for one class to finish and plan to take another the next day just to finish a class, and I am sitting in class and start to feel a little ill. I decide to go ahead and go home because I didn't have any work i could really do, since I had to wait until the instructor lectured the next day with the new class of Accounting 3 students and I needed that lecture because that was a chapter I needed to get my diploma.
Well, I go home, and before i can make it home, I have some tummy problems. Well, I won't go into detail, but I have been sick in different ways for the last three days, going on four. I still can't eat without it leaving my body too quickly in a very disgusting way.
I went to see the ENT yesterday and they performed a scope procedure that looked into my throat and he decided my tonsils have to come out because one was EXTREMELY enlarged, causing all the problems, and he wants to test it once it is out. So, I have not been to school this week, so I have not done more school work, and I have to have surgery.
These are my tests. I am just going to continue on plugging away, trying to finish my assignments before June 20th, which is my surgery date. And after my surgery, I will recover as fast as i can (and it will not test as cancer), and i will get a job to support me and my son. I will write in another blog another day about where i live and my situation. I know my situation, and like i said, i am sure no one else will be reading this blog, so i am cool.
Okay, this was really really long.
Good night!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Change Is Good
Ok, I just need to write something to vent. I am having another sad day because I had to say goodbye to two special people from my life today, and that is the second time in a month I have had to do that.
I know that the people I said goodbye to today are moving forward with their life and following God's calling. It just hurts me because they were part of my life for a short time but it was an important time in my life when I needed people like that.
I first met this couple when I was trying to find a new direction in my life and was searching for a new home church. I was looking for a church that offered some sort of singles' Bible study or Sunday School class. I had checked out a couple other churches looking for those things and the classes they offered and the groups they had just didn't feel right to me, I just didn't click with the people in those groups.
I visited a church because my friend went to church there and she also worked there and I just thought I would check it out. I went one week and then went back the following week because they were having a Car Show. I went to check it out and while I was there I struck up a conversation with the Worship Arts Ministry leader guy and his brand new wife about a singles ministry at their church. He had been the leader of another singles group in his former church and so we discussed it and he said he was actually working on that and for me to keep coming back to see what happened. The next week he had it all set up with a starting date.
That group, The Next Level, has been a very important part of my life over the last 2 years. I haven't been going to group for a few months now, due to school, and I miss it a bunch.
Anyway, the leaders of that group, John and Sarah-Irene, have been there for me through a lot of stuff in the last couple years. We even stayed in their home when we were waiting to get into the shelter we are in now. And now they are following God's calling and moving to Atlanta.
I didn't think I would get real emotional over their departure, but it comes not too long after my best friend for the last year moved to Kentucky. Carla, I miss you a bunch! I went to a party for John and Sarah-Irene yesterday and I got a little choked up when everyone started singing for one last jam session with John. Today was really tough at church. He spoke and the vocal team sang a lot of songs and it just made me miss them more.
I just want to say Sarah-Irene and John, I will miss you guys so much. I will make sure you get lots of pics of Gavin, and I want pics of Molly, Mokey and you guys. I don't know when I will be able to make it to Atlanta, but as soon as I am able, I will be there to see you both.
Peace be with you!
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