A Humble Lesson

What a week! It has been a series of emotions this whole week. I had really high highs and really low lows, but I made it through. I found out this week that my drivers license had been reinstated in FL, and so I was going to be back on the road! I have been saving money and had enough to get everything I needed, my new Kentucky license, and my car insured and tagged in Kentucky. So, I started taking care of everything I needed to take care of. I went and got my Kentucky Drivers License. Then, I ran into a snag. I started looking for my car title, and couldn't find it. I searched through every piece of paper in my home, and then went to my car (which is being stored) and looked through it, and could not find my title. I had hit a bump. I called to find out how to get a duplicate title, and in the great state of FL, they just recently had a price increase on EVERYTHING and to get a duplicate, it was going to cost me. The price of a title in August 2009 was $29.25, but as of September 1, 2009, they jumped to $78.25! So, for me to get a duplicate title, to continue on my path of being back on the road, I would need to fill out a form I got online, print it, and mail it to FL with a check for $78.25. 

So, today, I got up and went to the library, and filled out the form I needed, and printed it, and wrote out a check for $78.25 and mailed it. Now, I wait. I have no idea how long this will take. It has to travel to FL, and then they have to process it, and then Tallahassee will send me a duplicate title. Once I get the title, I can then go insure my car, and then take it to the courthouse and register it. 

I have not driven my car since September, when I found out my license was suspended for an unpaid traffic citation I received a week after losing my job in April. I had forgotten all about the ticket, and had no idea my license was suspended, but was fortunate enough to find out before I was pulled over and arrested for driving without a license. This has been a very humbling experience, since I live in a town without any form of public transportation, and in September, I barely knew anyone in town. I live just far enough from the middle of town that walking to a grocery store would be impossible, especially with a young child. So, I had to start asking for help in forms of rides to the store and to and from church and anywhere else I needed to go. God has provided the people in my life to get us where we have needed. I am very grateful for those people. I have made some new friends through this. 

I will be happy to be able to be on the road again. I will be able to start taking measures towards looking for a job again.I will be able to go to a store without having to make a whole plan of who is going to take us and when can they come. If I need something, I will be able to just walk out the door, get in my car, and go. And I can visit other people without them having to come pick me up and take me back to their house. Gavin is looking forward to it, too. We can leave his carseat in our car, instead of having to tote it around when we need to go somewhere. I do thank God, though, for teaching me a lesson in humility, and allowing me to be humble and asking for help when I needed it. Also, I thank God for putting such wonderful people in my life that have helped us for the last few months, and if there is ever a way I can help any of them, or anyone else, then I will do so.

Random Thoughts

Ok, I am not a blogger, and probably no one will read this anyway, so I am just going to type what comes into my head. It is 1:00 AM and I can't sleep. I have been sick for 3 days now, and I still am sick, and it is driving me nuts. I just keep seeming to get tested, and I really want to move forward in my life, just to get hit with roadblocks all the time.

It all started in December. I had been perfectly fine, been going to school, and doing well in school, making straight A's, hardly sick, and then all of a sudden, I started to get sick. I stayed sick for a long time. I had ear infections, bronchitis a few times, pneumonia, flu, tonsillitis, ummm, even a sinus infection. I had a sore throat every day from December until now. I had been going to the doctor's and ERs since December and finally I thought it had all stopped, and then I realized, I STILL had a sore throat. Everything else had gone away, except that, and a little tenderness on the outside of my throat and a little in my ear. I went back to the doctor and he said well, it is NOT a virus, and probably nothing you can get rid of with antibiotic, since i had had many antibiotics already and nothing had killed the sore throat. He asked if I smoked, and I had just recently quit, something I am not proud of, I had started smoking again when my life seemed to be falling apart last year, but that is another post or just nothing to talk about here. So, anyway, he asked me if I smoked and I had just quit and he asked me how long I had smoked and all total I had smoked for a very long time, not including the 14 months I had quit before last year. He told me that there is a possibility it could be cancer, and told me to see an ENT. So, there it was, i am 33 years old and have the best little 3 year old little boy in the whole universe and he told me I may have caused myself to get cancer. I cried, but then I prayed. I said, there is no way that is what it is and if it is, i will be okay, cuz it can be healed. I went on with my day and made my appointment with the ENT.

Then I graduated on Friday (5/16). Well, I went to graduation. I still have a few chapters I have to finish in a one class to actually get my diploma. So, I am all psyched about that, and go throughout my weekend, and my son wakes up on Monday morning with a FEVER. So, no school on Monday for me. Day one. Then on Tuesday, I do make it into school, I take a test for one class to finish and plan to take another the next day just to finish a class, and I am sitting in class and start to feel a little ill. I decide to go ahead and go home because I didn't have any work i could really do, since I had to wait until the instructor lectured the next day with the new class of Accounting 3 students and I needed that lecture because that was a chapter I needed to get my diploma.

Well, I go home, and before i can make it home, I have some tummy problems. Well, I won't go into detail, but I have been sick in different ways for the last three days, going on four. I still can't eat without it leaving my body too quickly in a very disgusting way.
I went to see the ENT yesterday and they performed a scope procedure that looked into my throat and he decided my tonsils have to come out because one was EXTREMELY enlarged, causing all the problems, and he wants to test it once it is out. So, I have not been to school this week, so I have not done more school work, and I have to have surgery.

These are my tests. I am just going to continue on plugging away, trying to finish my assignments before June 20th, which is my surgery date. And after my surgery, I will recover as fast as i can (and it will not test as cancer), and i will get a job to support me and my son. I will write in another blog another day about where i live and my situation. I know my situation, and like i said, i am sure no one else will be reading this blog, so i am cool.

Okay, this was really really long.
Good night!